After the Waterlilies/Park Bench incident in New York, I began to take regular trips to see Green Eyes. I went with wide open eyes free from all the things that I’ve heard about New York and relationships. I desired to know these things for myself and see the city and my new friend for who they really were- the good, the bad, and the garbage.
Over time it became clear to me that I wanted to come and live in New York, and at first I was very enthusiastic about it, but when I went home to tie up loose ends in Toronto all of my fears started to creep in and prevent me from taking this huge leap of faith.
What if I wasn’t good enough for this World Class city? Or for this super amazing guy? What if I lose myself, forget who I am and where I come from in New York’s jungle of people and things created lose yourself in? What if..what if.. what if… My mind, she was spinning quickly and spraying these shit thoughts all over my brain at a mile a minute.
A deal needed to be struck to ease my worried. One with New York, and with Green Eyes.
‘Listen here’ I said to New York. ‘I’m coming to you on one condition. I am not going to get into the New York pace of things, I will not be rushed. I will take you as you are, and you will take me as I am.'
“And to you Mr. Green Eye’s, I will not be caught up in the pressures of moving this relationship along in a linear fashion. I need to move slowly and stay awake, attuned to the changes that love will bring forth is us. Promise we will move lightly, lightly ever lightly. Promise me we will take our time’.
And from that deal struck, I wrote a song called ‘Time’. It has a very 90’s singer song writer vibe that I’m really into. Check it out here.
As always, thanks for listening :)